So it's the end of day three...whew! Did you know you had muscles right underneath your boobs? Cause seriously, mine are broken. Or bleeding. Whatever is happening...it hurts so good. haha!! :)
I've finished my dinner (last meal of the day should be 3 hours before bed) which happened to be awesome. Except for one part. I made the most delicious pork tenderloin, (4 oz or guesstimated about the size of my palm) which I have honestly never cooked in my life. With 2 oz of mustard, (again, I know, but I have to say I am getting used to the idea of using mustard now). 3/4 cup of blackberries over 1 cup of baby leaf spinach, with balsamic vinaigrette. The part I did NOT like were the 2 cups of cooked cabbage. First of all, I am NOT a cooked vegetable eater no matter how hard I try to be. I can eat the heck out of pretty much any vegetable as long as it is uncooked, raw, crisp, and cold from the refrigerator. For instance, why is it that I can pick and eat green beans from the garden without even worrying about washing it first but when I try to eat a bite of cooked or even steamed green beans I want to throw up?! It's pretty frustrating! For one, I think they taste so different and the texture, OMG *gag* *cough*... it's just awful! Connor on the other hand will eat pretty much any vegetable I put in front of him and then tell me that I need to eat my vegetables. I feel like I am living with parents all over again! haha! But, the one part about this 'diet' that I am on is the leafy green vegetables that I am supposed to eat with dinner. Here are the options they give me: chard, bok choy, kale, cabbage, brussels sprouts, and collard. First of all what in the hell are the first three? I've heard of them but, honestly, if I have to Google something just to see what it is before I eat it, well...I am just not gonna do it! The three that are left over are a freaking nightmare! (If you have any suggestions, please feel free to share!) The least nightmarish was cabbage so that's what I went with tonight. And now I'm bitching about it. Don't worry about it.
After dinner I thought about this skinny B that I saw on t.v. today wearing a bikini and I had a conversation with myself, "I don't think I have any pictures from when I looked awesome in a bikini, all tanned and toned, with no cellulite or stretch marks, getting looks from cute guys and the occasional rotten old man which was really okay because I know I really did look good and why not soak it up because one day I'll be old and I should enjoy it all and..." OOPS...sorry, I kind of went off on a tangent there...*clears throat*...excuse me! Anyhoo, after this conversation with myself I realized, "Why am I talking about my bathing suit wearing self, as if it was a person who had died?" I can still be that person who feels good about their body and proudly wear a bathing suit. I just have to work for it. So that is more incentive to reach my goal. I don't want to give myself a time-line to lose weight. I know it can be a long process sometimes. However, perhaps by May 2010 I can be ready for the Eugene 1/2 marathon and even better maybe be bathing suit ready for next summer! How awesome would that be? I am already thinking about shopping, hehe ;) A girl can dream her wishes true if she wants something bad enough!
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